beyond september 30th...

today i unglue my mind from adhesive adherences brought on by my own deficiencies. i promised myself this. i don't assume it will be swift or easy. i'd prefer to hear the duct-tape ripping the hairs off my arms in one fell swoop. i'd rather feel that instant pain than the deep penetrating throb that is inevitable. but instead, this long slow haul of all the baggage i've allowed to stack up, blocking the spurts of synapsial ignition i thrive upon, will require a slow deliberate unpacking. the dresser drawers will require an ordered assemblage. no more miss-matched socks. no more throwing shit on the floor. i will sit in front of this keyboard until it again begs for my touch or i will pound it into submission... a my way or the highway kinda thing, if you will.